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I can confidently say that this fifth decade has been the most full, the most challenging, the most "so not about me" that I've lived to date. Friendships lost, parents aging, multiple business paths - and so little time to get it all in.

Last night, under the July full "Buck Moon" for six minutes I watched the ISS (International Space Station) cross the sky above me - on this 50th Anniversary of NASA - of which Steve's dad had a huge part of during that generation. The full moon glowed still and timelessly over my left shoulder, while over my right the ISS surfaced from the horizon bigger and brighter than I expected and foraged across the horizon - consistently and steadfast - making me curious at what rate of speed it was truly traveling.

17,200 mph - more than 15 laps around the earth in the next 24 hours. And me, small, inconsequential, standing on my boat dock looking up, realizing that the ISS was traveling at a rate I could not even comprehend - but regardless, to my eye, it was moving in control, consistent, steady and manageable.

Looks can be deceiving - and humbling. Life is very challenging - sometimes wanting to pick me up and move me along at ISS speed. This decade of life "not being about myself" (Lord knows the last one was much different) feels to  move at ISS speed. But if I choose to step back and observe, connect and be present - versus go along for the ride, perhaps the view will be much different.

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